Immanuel Adams

[27M] Feeling especially lonely.

<!-- SC_OFF -->I know this isn't necessarily a sub that revolves around receiving compliments specifically, at least as far as I can tell, so I feel a little weird posting this here, and basically begging for validation, but here I go. This photo is very old by now, maybe from 2024 or so. I know that during the time when this photo was taken, I felt just as bad as ever about my physical appearance and myself in general. There are old photos of myself that I'll look back on and I'll think: "Wow, if only I could look like that again." This is one of those photos. While I'm okay with how I look in this image, I feel like it's never been an good representation of what I truly look like. I may have liked how I looked in this photo when it was taken, but then and now, I'm under the belief that I look so much worse than this in person. I feel so fat and gross in comparison to so many over my older photos. I feel like I've literally decayed. My face feels so fat, my face is constantly riddled with scabs and blemishes because I can't help but pick at my skin. Every time I shave my face, I hate how I look and it leads to insane irritation and acne. But I have to do it once in awhile I guess. I'm also extremely conflicted with whether or not I should commit to having long hair like this or not. It's getting closer to this length again, but I'm afraid it may just be making me look even worse. <!-- SC_ON -->